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| i am so emotionally drained....i dont have ne more to give.... | | |
| *sigh* sometimes i wonder if i should have made different choices int he past...it makes we wonder where would i be today... better off? happier.... its not that im not happy with ne one person, just myself. but i guess thats what happens when u ask what if.... one of my friends told me my smile lights up the room and i asked if they really meant my smile lol!blahblahblah....im being kinda selfish right now and feelin sorry for myself! I WISH FOR >>>>WORLD PEACE...lol not.. that would make life so boring and war is inevitable. plus history is my fav. subject so where would we be w/o war lol. | | |
| well i got the news about my job! im gonna be a supervisor at white water!!im really excited!!its gonna be so amazing!!and well im sure rough on a lot of occassions! i told sherri about it thinking she would be excited for me but stupid me.....she said kewl....ur insane....thanks a lot!! some ppl just cant be happy for u bc they are jealous and most times think they r better than u!!im so tired of that!then i told candice and tried to tell joel....i thought he would deffinately have gotten the same position. well thats not the case. i feel really bad about it! i didnt expect it at all and he did so i guess he was just really upset! thats understanable. candice said i prolly shouldnt say nething about it and i wasnt going to...but now i kno there is gonna be this underlying hatred b/w us. i have always felt like there was a power struggle b/w us ever since this summer...then mock trials...and now this....man thats the last thing i want is someone to dislike me....someone on my own team nevertheless! i kno there are ppl who dont like me and thats ok....but i really dont want this to end up like that!!but then again i dont see y i have to be depressed about reaching a goal of mine! i have such passion for this job and im willing to work my ass off for it!!i go to the gym 6 days a week so i will be in better shape just for whitewater and its dishearting to kno that some ppl over look my efforts and only see the fact that someone got it over them. ive always been the one not quite good enough. there will always be one person who is better and i kno that.... but ive never had the highest grade....im not going to GHP.... ive gotten into trouble with the wrong crowd.... ive never been the hott girl lol! and now i feel that things are working out for me....and now that they are....im hurting one of my friends in the process....i wish there was another way! but hey thats life.....and we all have to deal with its ups and downs. | | |
| i had my white water phone interview today!! i think i did really well but we will see!i really hope i get a leadership position!!!!!!!im nervous lol! white water is commin to cass tomorrow so ne of yall who go to cass make sure u tell vivkie tillery (lady from white water) Kim said hey!!!!PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE | | |
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By Elie Wiesel, Stella Rodway, Francois Mauriac
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i hate that [[l can be so closed minded.... i have a friend who is SO kewl but ppl wont give him a chance bc they dont know him. that just makes me mad....! ne wayz i had a pretty good day! i think ill be a lead at white water but maybe a supervisor... i dont it but either one would be kewl....ill know by feb. 3rd or so WOOOHOOO. GREAT NEWS my dad doesnt have lukemia or a blood disease. that was the best news i got all week!!! right now im watching "pretty woman" I LOVE THIS MOVIE lol! ok well there isnt much for me to say.....oh wait
andy got his hair cut! it looks amazing. im so proud that he went through with it and it looks so HOTT hehehe....love u andy! his band played at a church today and i hope it went well.... they are pretty good. if u havent heard of them there name is Rubicon and u should give them a shot!!later all!!!!!!!! | | |
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